I have always been "spiritual," always believed in God. It wasn't until I was about 33 years old that my life took on a new meaning.

     I was trapped and couldn't get out of a long term situation that was very unhealthy, to say the least. The day finally came and I was on a wing and a prayer......literally. my legs were not strong enough to walk out, so God carried me. Then he sent me an angel. A person only God could've sent. God saved my life through her. I was beaten down and very weak. Then, the next 10 years were remarkable. I am truly one walking miracle. As my faith grew stronger, I went through more and more tribulations. I would consistently turn to God and amazing things would happen. I got stronger and stronger. God did hear my prayers. I have so much faith and clarity now. I am so thankful for God's love and mercy. I have mistakes in my life, but I'm always forgiven. The real blessing is, not only do I know that, but I feel it, I mean it really fills my heart.

     As my faith grew stronger and I was confronted with so many difficult situations, I learned to pray, and my direction would come. I trusted God and did what God wanted me to do, much of the time against what other people and my loved ones wanted. It wasn't very easy, But it always worked.

     I have always (and still do) struggled with giving certain situations to God. I will try to deal with them all by myself. Then, when I'm good and frustrated, I remember to just put my hands up to God and give it to him. He takes it, does his will and I then surrender. I am a work in progress I guess.

     Miracles happen in my life all the time. It's not because of "how I'm living," it's simply because I have Christ in my heart and in my life. I don't ask for these gifts, they just happen.

     I was the ever "church hopper." That was OK though, because I did get what I needed, God made sure the sermons were tailored for me. Then, this old friend brings me to his church. Ready for the miracle? It was home. I was in exactly the right place, right where God wanted me to be. This is where "in his time" truly began to make perfect sense to me.

     Then, this old friend and I became so close, almost inseparable. The comfort level between us was so natural. So then came the issue of the relationship going to the next level. I had so many reservations, I hadn't contemplated ever being in love again, just never thought that could ever happen. I didn't run (although I thought about), I prayed and prayed. He was steadfast and patient. Then WHAM!, my heart completely filled with this unbelievable love. every hole in my heart was filled, every tear mended and every scar gone. This man says I'm the love of his life. I believe that because it was all God's will. My heart is truly healed and it's because God loves me.

     I'm not afraid of life anymore. As I study scripture and pray, I am securing in knowing I'm never alone. I still have a bad day once in a while, but who doesn't. They are pretty infrequent and short lived and I get through it with God.

     So, I say live according to God's will, love, forgive, and don't be afraid. And when you struggle, look up and ask for help. Let God fill your heart, heal you. Try it, you'll feel different, look different,and be more beautiful and radiant than ever.

     When people see this beautiful new you and ask what your secret is (and believe me, they will), you can tell them, and soon you too will have a testimony to give.